don't be afraid to step out of line

please

2008-01-12T11:59:06Z

just stop talking to me.
i never want to see you again in my life.

stop breathing my air.

i live in a church

2007-11-02T00:40:54Z

everything in my life has totally changed. i don't know if it's good or bad yet. i'm waiting silently. i do know one thing though;
I'M LEAVING OUT OF WEST VIRGINIA ON THIS ONE DAY

don't look back in anger.

2007-08-26T23:01:34Z

you've been chasing me down,
waiting for something to bend.
i've been lost now i'm found.
saving the tide to your heart.
i'm taking the hard road.
i never feel anymore.
let me come down easy,
let me be reborn.
have some faith in this life.
going through windows & doors.
but the seasons may change.
& i've never felt so alone.
i'm taking the hard road.
i never feel anymore.
let me com down easy,
let me be the one.
i've got one love on my mind.
try to get to heaven if i've go the time.
i fear something i can't deny,

Another sleepless night,

2007-08-25T13:04:13Z

in your name. i can't eat. how do you do this to me? these days are turning to blurs. my day's & nights are meshing. i can not tell my dreams from reality. sick.

So you came,

2007-08-17T06:26:44Z

now lets see if your magic is real.

booo.

2007-01-24T19:10:29Z

the only down fall of me NOT being in school is no all-county. :(

YEAH YEAH YEAH

2007-01-24T19:04:20Z

so i'm not in school anymore but i'm getting my GED. :)
keep fingers crossed.

cococochanel @ 2006-11-16T12:50:00

2006-11-16T16:50:04Z

beautiful sickness

give me your sickness. please?

cococochanel @ 2006-11-16T12:43:00

2006-11-16T16:43:11Z

your sickness is beautiful. like a plague, it over takes me. covering every inch oh my body. then you leave. i'm left cold, shaking on the ground. come back. i need you to live. sadly, i need you to live.

cococochanel @ 2006-10-16T17:02:00

2006-10-16T21:03:52Z

have you seen the love of my life? she is missing & i don't know what to do without her.

cococochanel @ 2006-10-16T16:50:00

2006-10-16T21:00:50Z

all i ever want is you. yes that is true. but till then there's school & i break all the rules. i wish i could change my ways. will you help me today? thinking of your face, a ghost to me, the world fades. i don't know when it happened. i don't know if it will change. but you have all of me baby & i hope i have all of you too.

cococochanel @ 2006-10-16T16:43:00

2006-10-16T20:47:41Z

i'm drowning in my sea
of lost memories
then i hear you call
my middle name
it stings

drama queen moment

2006-10-11T00:16:41Z

hate is all i feel from the people around me. but if they only knew that i would break the back of love for them. so it must be in the water. the lies they have filled in their heads about me. i can't apologize for something not there. i can't take this much longer. just pour the misery down baby, pour it down on me.

cococochanel @ 2006-10-10T06:05:00

2006-10-10T10:10:06Z

okay i know i mess up everything. don't remind me & i love you too. why can't i do anything right? time to get ready or smoke a cigarette? desicions desicions.

cococochanel @ 2006-10-10T05:33:00

2006-10-10T09:54:14Z

my head is pounding from lack of sleep & too many cigarettes. i'm just sitting here counting down the minutes for teenage wasteland to begin. energy drinks here i come. oh how i hate them. but if i want to survive the grind today, i must find my energy in a can. i'm going to be idle all day with thoughts of you on my mind anyways. so why not continue this game i play with myself. it's what keeps me hanging on. there has to be pain, or i will cause conflicts for us. i would rather hurt myself then us. god how i need to stop hurting us. he only knows the pain i have put you through. there are no apologize needed. just change. yes, watch me change into a fly for you to pull off my wings. you don't mean too. i'm to blame. change is needed indeed.

cococochanel @ 2006-10-10T04:54:00

2006-10-10T09:10:19Z

it's 4:55. you're on my mind.
the sandman must have forgotten about me. but who needs sleep anyways,
when i have you as my daydream.

desire

2006-10-10T04:04:18Z

i desire a friend more than anything, i desire a love, i desire safety-
but, i can't grow a new heart. so don't go breaking it.♥

cococochanel @ 2006-10-09T23:46:00

2006-10-10T03:50:53Z

& since you've gone away
my love has chased another day
away from me
& now i'm learning
what the world is like without you
i can hardly see
what it's worth to me

cococochanel @ 2006-10-09T22:57:00

2006-10-10T03:11:56Z

i'm such a silly girl. love pours out my veins for him. why can't i just make him happy? do what he wants? no, of course i can't. that would make life to easy for me. for us. why must i continue on making things worse? why do i get this highness from the pain i cause? i see tears are yet to come. but in the end i know i need him. i'll stay with him till my bones rot away to nothing. but if he'll have me.

cococochanel @ 2006-10-09T08:29:00

2006-10-09T12:46:09Z

last night was unforgettable. for the only one i would die for was in my arms. i felt so helpless & small pushed up against him. my body melted away with each breath he took. the words i love you seemed to pour out of my mouth. those words never felt so real in my life.

cococochanel @ 2006-10-09T08:02:00

2006-10-09T12:11:08Z

so they say the earth is round. then why does it feel like i'm falling off? everyday i'm fighting a new war. with myself or the people around me. every time it seems the problem is fixed, i turn around to find i'm in a bigger one. i don't know, maybe it's just me. for now i'm just going to dream & enjoy the beauties of the earth; rain.

THE PERFECT DREAM